The more I try to organize my time and life, the harder it is to do. I haven’t counted all the lists and schedules I have written down or saved in my documents. It sounds so cliché to say that I am going to make getting organized a New Year Resolution, but it needs to be done now and this is as good a time as any other 😀
I’m sparing you the list and schedule I might otherwise create in order to encourage myself to get better at following lists and keeping to schedules. Yes, it is a tongue twister, and if you examine it, it is a brain twister as well.
My plan is to start at the same time every day with no excuses. This was easy enough for me when I was employed outside the home, but now it takes my own motivation. With all that has gone on in the last while, I have found it difficult to stay that motivated. It’s a hard truth, but it is the truth.
The idea is to arrange my social and private life around my writing in small steps. If I want to get stronger, I must exercise and keep moving forward. Beginning at 8 am every day would mean a radical change in my typical day.
If you read Scattered, Freaked Out and Moving Forward, you probably have some idea of where I have been and where I am interested in going. Oddly enough, the more I do, the more varied my interests become. It might be too confusing if I didn’t find it all exciting.
And that is the difference between then and now. Then, I was trying to put on a positive face in order to make myself change in positive ways – Affirmations, if you will. Now I am recognizing the positive parts and coming back into a person I had forgotten about: Me. The REAL me. The one who not only threw herself into learning and creating, but felt confident in her ability to do so. I lost that along the way and it has been quite the struggle to find it again.
This whole starting over thing has its drawbacks, but it has its advantages, too. If I let myself, I can tackle it with the enthusiasm I once had. Maybe it will be much more. Why consider the drawbacks when there is so much to explore and explain?
In The Power of Intention page 23, the late Wayne Dyer stated:
Silent knowledge starts when you invite the power of intention to play an active part in your life.
He went on to talk about the seven faces of intention and how each plays a vital role in full access to its power. At its most basic, it means that we have to accept that what we dream of and need is true right now and then act accordingly.
Obviously there is more to it than that, but this is where I start.